15 Months Later

Time flies.

I can’t believe I had weight loss surgery 15 months ago.  I’m now down to 228 lbs, which brings me to 122 lbs lost. I have a BMI of 33, which still categorizes me as obese… Obese class 1 to be exact. Once I hit 200 lbs I’ll be in the overweight category and once I hit 169 lbs I’ll be normal. The high side of normal, but normal.  I can’t see myself losing another 60 lbs though, it seems so crazy.

Still don’t regret my decision to have weight loss surgery. Best decision I’ve ever made. Advice I can give to those that are looking to have weight loss surgery, lose as much weight as you possibly can in your first 6 months post op because it slows down tremendously after that. High protein, low carb. Going low carb at first was easy for me, but after 6 months I started working carbs back in… And they’re oh so yummy.

Something I’ve struggled with, getting my water in. I don’t drink nearly as much water as I should. I’m lucky to drink 32 oz of water a day when I should be doubling that.

Thats all for now. Not much else to say!

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Run Michelle, Run.

It has been a while hasn’t it? I’ve totally neglected my blog.

I’ve lost 21 more lbs since my last blog entry on February 10th, bringing me down to 239 lbs with a total loss of 111 lbs so far.  The weight loss has definitely slowed down. Even though I’m still eating way less calories than my body burns, it seems to still want to hold onto this fat.

In order to lose more weight I need to push my body further and harder than I’m used to.  I have to step out of my comfort zone of walking and into the uncharted territory of running.

I downloaded an app on my phone called Couch to 5k otherwise known as C25k.  It’s an 8 week program that brings you from sitting on a couch to running/jogging a 5k.  I’m on week 2 and I’m surprised at how well I’m doing. I’m able to complete every training session without stopping. It consists of a 5 minute warm up walk, then a 20 minutes period of alternating between jogging and walking, then a 5 minute cool down walk.  I have a ridiculous amount of energy now and I actually get excited to complete each session.

Once I have the 5k down I will be training for a 10k, then a 15k, then a half marathon.

I’ll be doing the Dodgers 15k on September 13, 2015 (in 13 weeks) and the Disneyland Star Wars Half Marathon on January 17, 2016 (in 32 weeks).

I got this.

This is not a piece of cake.

If anyone tells you having weight loss surgery is the easy way out, please tell them to kindly go F$%& themselves.  I’m almost 6 months post op. The honeymoon stage is over.  From here on out, this will be my hard work and wise choices. I’ve been making wise choices/ (for the most part) from the beginning, but there were times I slipped up.

I can stomach anything and everything.  I could sit and eat things like pretzels and popcorn all day… but I won’t. For some odd reason, snack food does not get me full, protein gets me full fast, but nothing else does. If I wanted to, I could drink frappucinos 24/7 and gain all my weight back. However, now that I’ve lost 90 lbs since my highest weight, I don’t want to ever let myself be the person I used to be.  I’m so much more happier and outgoing now.

I wake up and I actually WANT to go exercise.  I’ve been hiking every weekend, just as a Sunday thing, but now I want to go during the week as well.  I used to just walk a half mile out, and walk the half mile back to my house.  Now I’ll walk 4-6 miles at one time.  I’ll slowly work up to jogging and running as well.

So I’m down to 260 lbs from 350 lbs.  I’ve lost 60 lbs since surgery, 90 lbs overall.  That averages to 10 lbs lost per month, which my surgeon and personal trainer say is a good amount of weight to lose per month. According to my trainer I have about 100 lbs of fat left to lose and 10 lbs of muscle to gain.

Furthermore, I’ve even had 3 long stalls  that lasted a month each time.  So if you’re reading this and you stall or plateau a lot, don’t get discouraged, it is normal and it’ll eventually fall off.

5 Months Post-Op

My last blog entry was right before Thanksgiving on November 22nd, I weighed 278 lbs.

Then on December 22nd I weighed in at 268 lbs, I lost 10 lbs in 1 month, not too shabby.

Since December 22nd I’ve been teetering between 265-268 lbs! So far I’m at a 3 week stall.  I’m almost 5 months out (as of January 18th), these kind of stalls are expected.  It is terribly frustrating though!!!

So when I disappear from my blog for a month at a time, you can understand why.


I’ve been keeping track of my measurements though…

June 6, 2014 December 28, 2015
Weight 350 lbs 265  lbs
Neck 14.5 13.5
Chest 49 45
Waist 42 38.5
Hips 58 51
Bicep 19 17
Forearm 11.5 11
Thigh 36 31
Calf 20 18
250 inches 225 inches

I’ve lost 25 inches and 85 lbs!  I think that’s good, I’m not really sure what is a good amount of inches to lose along with 85 lbs.


In other news, I started going to the gym again, after having not been in over 1.5 years.  I got back with my personal trainer as well… I can never make myself as sore as he makes me. Yesterday was arm day and he killed me.  I can hardly get my clothes on and off. It hurts to buckle my seat belt, it hurts to turn the steering wheel, I’m a hot mess, but it’s a great feeling to be sore again.

I told him that my goal was to tone up and build muscle, and hopefully that will help with my skin elasticity.  I’m also hoping to hit 100 lbs lost by my 6 month surgiversary on February 18th!  I have 5.5 weeks to lose 15 lbs! That’s roughly 3 lbs a week that I need to lose! I can and will do this!


Oh oh oh!  I’m going to New York City on January 16th!  First time ever!  The girl I’m staying with is somebody I met on WordPress, and she also had Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy! Go figure!


Not much else to report right now, so here are some pictures…

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3 Months Post Op

Hey There!!!

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Left: August 18, 2014                          Right: November 22, 2014

These past 3 months since surgery have flown by extremely fast. Back in May 2014, when I was considering surgery, I would have no idea the drastic changes that would take place in the 6 months that followed.

To recap, I weighed approximately 350 lbs at my highest known weight (I’m 5’9″ fyi). I had vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery on August 18th, 2014.  As of today I am 278 lbs.  I’m down 72 lbs in 4 months (I include the month before surgery because I kicked ass that month and lost 30 lbs.)  The last time I was in the 270’s was when I was 20 years old (10 years ago WTF!!!!)  Aaaand I want to lose another 100 lbs.  That seems almost impossible, but I’ve already lost 70 lbs, so I’m almost halfway there.


So if you’re curious what I eat on a daily basis…

Breakfast

Consists of either a protein shake or a greek yogurt with pumpkin seeds.

Lunch

Leftovers (protein of course)! I’m always eating people’s leftovers. What would last somebody 1 meal will last me 3 meals.

If I don’t have leftovers I usually eat a frozen Morningstar veggie patty with some pickles and whatever condiment I feel like having.

Dinner

Chicken… for the most part.

Snacks

Cheese, lunch meat, almonds, peanuts, edamame, hard boiled eggs, etc.


These food choices gets really boring. Sometimes I’ll stand at the fridge, door wide open, staring into the abyss.  Not knowing what I’m going to eat. I probably do that 5 times a day and never pick anything out.  I never have HUNGER pains. I just know when its time to eat, when I need protein, etc.  I’m not going to lie, there have been several days where I’ve only eaten once, simply because I forgot to eat the other 2 times. There have been days where I haven’t drank enough water and I paid dearly for it the next day! Dehydration is not a joke folks.  Get your water in. Please.


On another note, I want to give a shout out to all of you who are cheering for me.  Do you know that I’m one of the VERY few people that tell everyone they know about their surgery?  SO MANY people keep it a secret.  I would like to say that 9 out of 10 people that lose a drastic amount of weight have had weight loss surgery.  I’ve met several weight loss surgery patients in real life/instagram/facebook and they would never tell anybody outside of their parents about the surgery… hell I think there are some people out there that don’t tell their parents. The reason why these weight loss surgery patients don’t tell anybody about the surgery is because they’re afraid they will be judged or gossiped about. F that!

What is it in people that thinks it gives them the right to judge other people’s actions? Especially if those actions only affect the person making the decision.  Weight loss surgery helps people, it doesn’t hinder them.  Sure there are people that gain their weight back, but they make very poor choices.  They eat because of head hunger, not because they’re really hungry. They graze all day, snack, whatever you want to call it.

Long story short, thanks for not judging me and thanks for all of your support.

And if you’re reading this and you had weight loss surgery and kept it a secret, screw all the haters and the people who you think would judge you. They aren’t worth being in your life if they would judge you anyway.


The good, the bad, and the ugly.

So, I’m obsessed with the scale. Like, weigh 2 times a day obsessed. I need to stop focusing on it as much.  For the month of November there will be no numbers, sorry folks.  I’m going to focus on getting more exercise in, I want to be pleasantly surprised at the scale when I step back on in December. From that point on I will weigh in on Wednesdays only, it will be an event.

In other news, on Instagram there are several of us WLS patients who live in southern California.  We are getting together today in Downtown Disney. I’m pretty excited, but my anxiety of meeting new people creeps in. The anxiety I’ve always had about meeting people. “Do they like me… am I good enough… they probably don’t like me.” Awful, I know.  As positive as I try to be, or come off, this has always been in the back of my head.  When I try hard to be confident, I start telling myself that I’m too cocky and nobody cares. It’s a vicious cycle my friends!

I’m down 62+ lbs, I still have a long way to go, like 100 lbs in my opinion. If I wanted to stop at my high school graduating weight, I’d only have 60 more lbs to go, but I’m not stopping there.  Am I ever going to be OK with myself? The way i see myself in other peoples’ eyes?  Why do I care? Sometimes I really don’t give a fuck what other people think about me.  Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of the world and nobody can touch me. But then there are days, like today, where I feel useless, depressed, not good enough for anybody. Sometimes I feel like I try too hard to get people to like me.  It’s 50/50.

Anyways! On to my thoughts about the weekend. I love my weekends.  They’re fantastic. When it comes to my protein and fluid intake, I hate the weekends.  Here it is, 10am and I haven’t had 1 oz of protein or water.  This is the same thing I go through every weekend.  There is no routine, everything crumbles.  I do end up getting all my protein and water in, but I wait too long to start.  I end up needing to drink a 30+ gram protein shake, not enjoyable by any means, since I was forced to drink/eat nothing but protein shakes for 4 weeks straight. Gives me the chills just thinking about it.

I guess I’ll go drink a protein shake. FML.

Motivation.

When you drive 1.5-2 hours to work sitting in traffic, work 9 hours, then drive another 1.5 hours home in traffic, where do you find time to exercise?  I spend 12-13 hours away from home everyday. And if you add that with 8 hours of sleeping and another hour of meal prep/showering, that leaves you with 2 hours of downtime at home.  Am I going to spend 1 of those 2 hours exercising?! I really should, but in my head I’m thinking, I’m EXHAUSTED!

I really freaking hate this schedule. Ever since I went back to work after having surgery I’ve been working 8am-5pm.  I have to wake up at 5:30am in order to get to work on time and I don’t get home until 6:30pm. Would you want to do anything when you got home? If yes, where do you even find the motivation?  Did I mention I hate this schedule? Some people like the 8-5 shift, but I can’t hang anymore. I need to move closer to work ASAP.

Anyways.  I am writing this here, right now, to swear that I’m going for a walk tonight. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. I don’t know why I’ve been so lazy, while I’m walking I feel great! I feel like a new person.  I think I just need to get in the habit of doing it, because I have no issues with it.

Enough excuses.